Faith- in the face of trial and tribulation, in spite of a cloud of depression hovering over life trying to slink its way downwards to blanket me in a cocoon of darkness. Faith assails the creeping night creature with its brightness of hope. The light scorches the dark forcing it to give way just enough for a single golden beam to cut through, basking my heart with its life infusing balm. The light reminds me that hope comes from without, not within.
Desperation seeks for normalcy from within only to find emptiness where there was once fulness and sadness where there had been joy. The hope comes from outside seeking entrance, I don't need to find hope within to fill the strangeness, I must let the hope come to me. I've become a stranger to myself, a stranger seeking familiarity where nothing is the same.
My sister told me when she lost her beloved husband fifteen years ago- that she didn't know who she was anymore- how frightening it is to know who you are one day and the next you've lost such an integral part of you- you become unrecognizable.
I'm not me anymore.
Faith tells me my Savior is the same even if I've been set on a course of unexpected and unwanted metamorphosis. Thrust into my cocoon of darkness I know beautiful things will take place inside, unseen, as my Lord works in me, so that I may be like Him, and I shall see Him as He is when He returns! Darkness may surround me in many ways but the darkness cannot defeat the light within my heart. The cocoon piercing shaft of light from my Savior's love- put there by Him daily- my hope coming into me from without- I don't have to strive to manufacture my own hope, I need faith to receive and He gives me all the faith I need.
All praise, glory and honor unto my Savior Jesus Christ, now and forever! Amen!!!!!!!
1Jn_3:2 Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is.
Joh 1:12 But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:
Joh 1:13 Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.
Joh 1:14 And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.
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