Does God Understand?

Does God understand the way we want Him to understand? What do I mean by that question? Well, I know throughout my Christian walk I've come face to face with several situations where I find myself thinking- God will understand.  I usually have that thought when I'm questioning something I'm about to do and have doubts about God's point of view on the situation. Or maybe I don't even have doubts but know that God might not find what I'm about to do acceptable, and yet I feel compelled to do whatever it might be and want a pardon for my actions ahead of time. I want to knowingly do something I either know or suspect might be wrong.  Now the question is…does God understand?

I want to answer yes, and answer it very emphatically. Already I'm saying it is situational, everyone's situation is different. It's relationship-able, depending upon the relationship I have with God.  We tend to imagine- as very fallible human beings- that we get a pass to be forgiven by each other when we do something wrong, right? How often have you said you were sorry because you messed up and hurt someone in some way- their feelings, or otherwise? I might say it daily- I'm a very forgetful person and that leads to a lot of apologies.

I was once told that I wasn't really sorry though, because if I REALLY cared I'd write things down so I didn't forget them. And you know what, part of me agrees and another part says- I'd be writing a novel if I had to write down all the things I shouldn't forget. Excuses? Probably. For the most part anyway. Who knows. I sure do not think…well, time to forget this or that. It just happens in spite of my best intentions.

I digress.

Does God understand. Again, I'm screaming internally YES, YES, YES He has to understand or I'm doomed!

Let me ask you this question… it's an important one…

Do you think God understands when we deny Him to save our lives? When forced to covert to another faith, to renounce Christ or be beheaded, or tortured, or imprisoned, does God understand the denial and secretly false conversion that is just for show in order to live? I imagine there are a lot of people who have faced that situation- maybe not here in the United States, but in other countries this is happening right this very second as I type this.

Does God understand?

Throughout the New Testament we have many dying rather than deny Christ, we call them martyrs.  Why didn't they deny their faith and tell themselves God understands and knows I secretly still believe in Him?

Jesus said this--

Mat_10:33  But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.

Yet still, my mind screams, HE HAS TO UNDERSTAND!

Does He? 

Really?

Does God have to understand our denials to His will, what we know, or suspect is His will?

You might be thinking at this point that you'd better just give up then because you are constantly fighting and failing against various sins and situations that are questionable.  I hope you don't, I know I (BY THE GRACE OF GOD) will not give up. I'm not even going to give up if I say outright, right now.. GOD will NOT understand, He expects us to obey not condone, not seek prior pardon. I'm NOT giving up!!!  I am going to continue to live my very messy life and continue to pray and HOPE beyond hope that I can be FORGIVEN ALL of my sins, and that the power of the Holy Spirit will guide me and give me ALL I need to belong to Christ. I am going to pull on my Christian armor, I'm going to fight the good fight, I'm going to run the race, I'm going to cling to the cross of my Savior, I am going to strive against sin, resisting unto blood all through the Holy Spirit's power because I have no good in me! I am going to pray that when every single decision comes that I must make and that warning bell rings, and the caution sirens sound  and I hear the words-  GOD WILL UNDERSTAND - that by the power of my Savior, because He lives in me and I was crucified with Him- I will choose to do what I know God will understand rather than what I hope He will understand.

Please, Lord Jesus, please, let me be Yours now and forever!