My grief is not something out of the ordinary, my mind tells me this but my heart cries out- it is! This isn't ordinary! This is so far from ordinary how do people survive?!
They do, though, all the time, they survive.
My heart can't overrule my mind, not this time. I must put my heart to sleep, let the numbness that seeps in bit by bit enter unchallenged. My heart fights against unfeeling. My heart would rather ache than sleep, but my mind knows in order to heal the agony of living with death I have to let my heart grow quiet, stop its tears. Do hearts cry? They have to because the tears from my eyes are no longer matching the tears still spilling from my heart.
Rest now my heart, let this particular wave of tears roll gently into the shore, let this tide of grief subside for a while, as tides are wont to do, rest.
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Trials and tribulations.
They enter our lives these trials and tribulations wreaking havoc with our normalcy. They stir our passionate responses and remind us of the horrors sin has inflicted upon us. We weren't meant to live our lives filled with agonies interspersed with joy. This was never how it was intended and deep down we all know this to be true. Admit it or not, it's truth. I know this isn't how it will always be. I know each and every trial, all the tribulations are temporary to eternity. I will cling to the hope of my Savior who died so I could have the gift of salvation through Him. That salvation will be a life of the purest love in eternity, life how it was supposed to be. May God keep us in HIM as we face the horrible tragedies sin chokes us with time and time again, threatening to drag us to despair. God forbid we ever despair of the hope found in Jesus Christ, our Lord!
1Pe 1:7 That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ
1Pe 4:12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
1Pe 4:13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.
Joh_16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
Act_14:22 Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God.
Rom 8:35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
Rom 8:36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
Rom 8:37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
Rom 8:38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Rom 8:39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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